HAHA i knew sex would get ur attention..Just wanted to say that all here on blog.co.uk really really do have potentional to do some form of media...journalism...or advise column work..ur all amazing

Muchhhhhhh LOVE

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Do you ever feel like life will ever reach its peak??....Do you ever feel like life is nt worth living?...Do you ever feel like downing 9 pints and a half bottle of vodka to drown your sorrows and forget the misery that is life??...Life is meant to be for living...But why does it bring such misery...such hurt...such pain...all in the name of life and love...is love worth the misery..the pain...the heartbreak...and is the only purpose in life to find love????....Philosophy is the greatest profession...the people who try to find the meaning of life...But can the meaning of life ever be found??...Can anyone find out why we exsist..Can anyone find any other purpose other than mating...making other humans...to feel the same pain and hurt that every other being has??...What is your opinion on the actual meaning and purpose of life??

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I wish life was an easy as an 80s pop song!!

I want you to want me...and bamnn =]

If only life was that easyy =[

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Well....i have not been on in a while so thought today would be a perfect way to break myself back in....haha well remember below i explained about the new love interest and how i thought i may fall for him?? I did and boyyyyy was that a mistake...If you look up arrogant in the dictionary you'll find a small thumbnail of him ..yehh..sure..hes hott...but i have never met such a person!! I'll start by describing him. The main word to define him is 'Stoner', who thinks hes all about punkrock, but in my opinion he defies the punkrock ideals, about indiviuality and being yourself! He is racist,sexist and against gays. I mean gays are who they are, they are individual and they break the mould, punks should condone people who break the mould, not slate them for being different! Anyway back to Russell, he thinks being in a relationship means you can go to bars, chat up girls, leave with their numbers and meet up with them without telling your current girlfriend!... Thats what he did to me and then when i confronted him he made me feel as if it was my fault. What makes things worse is that i was told by my ex boyfriend, who i know secretly found alot of happiness from my misfortune...Im seriously wondering whether i will ever find happiness

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Love, It's such a strong word, but what is it? What is your opinion of love? I feel love cannot be defined as it is a feeling inside, that words can't describe Its euphoric, like your own slice of heaven How does everyone else feel?

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Well, once you are 16 you are legally allowed to have sex! But somehow i still feel that for some reason or another it is frowned upon at this age! That i do not understand!? Sex is a very enjoyable experience and if you are 16 and emotionally ready i do not see the problem! For me if i am in a relationship, i thoroughly enjoy sex and it is a very important part of any relationship as love can be shown both through actions and words

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With all the publicity surrounding the bullying situation in Big Brother, i felt it was only right i have my own say I've witnessed this kind of bullying firsthand! Some people may feel that what Danielle,Jo and Jade have done is not bad at all , but having experienced it myself i know that it is! Physical abuse is alot easier than verbal/emotional abuse! The way Danielle,Jo and Jade bully Shilpa is very intelligent! They pack together and try to pick her every little fault, so that they have an excuse to talk about her, and then when confronted about what was said, turn on the waterworks and pretend to show remorse, when really you can see straight through the act! You can almost feel the tension even when just watching the show! You can only imagine how imtimidated and uncomfortable Shilpa must feel! When i was at school the same thing happened to me, i would walk into a classroom and be able to tell immediatly that alot of the girls in the room did not like me! Its the most horrible feeling to know that you hated and for no reason! I feel that the 'bitches' in BB don't like Shilpa because they are intimidated by her radiance and aura! Shilpa lights up the room and shows up every other one of the female contestants, as she is naturally beautiful and doesn't talk like a common Londoner!

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Its official, I know i always say it but this time im serious I am never goin to touch alcohol again! Friday night was a disaster for me! Recently i've been finding alcohol the easiest way to make me forget about all my problems! I feel as if it just blanks my mind and for those few hours noone can hurt me emotionally! However on Friday i took it to the extremes, I got so drunk i blacked out, and cannot remember a thing except throwing up quite a few times After being informed of the things i said and did i felt completely ashamed of myself! And also thankful that i had people around that would help instead of taking advantage of the state i was in! That is why i have made myself the promise of not drinking again! Maybe when i am slightly older i'll try my luck, but hopefully by then i will have learnt my boundries!

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I sometimes wonder whether Mothers were here to make life easier or harder! My mother seems set on ruining my life! I've had alot of issues with myself ever since i can remember and she never tries to help me through them! I thought mothers were here to protect,love and comfort their children! Not to make the feel inferior and unwanted! My mum attempts to make me homeless everyday! Its 1:00pm and shes already tried to throw me out for leaving my towel on the bathroom floor! I know i should have picked it up, but in my opinion that was an overreaction! No matter what, my mother and i will never see eye to eye! We are completely different! I like to comfort people and make them feel good about themself! My mother likes to put people down, as if it makes her feel better! The thing i dislike about her most, is her lack of manners and respect for anyone! I hate people with no manners as i feel you should treat people the way you would like to be treated yourself! I've always stuck by my mother everytime shes needed me! She has never returned the favour, sometimes i feel its because im too nice to her, compared to my other siblings! For some reason or another she seems to like them better than me!

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Well, right now im not doin too well for myself! I left school as soon as i possibly could! Not because i did not enjoy it, but because i couldnt bare to be in the company of nearly every single pupil there! I though about joinin the army, to get away from this place and see the world, but then i realised it would totally kill my selfesteem! I like to look good, and feel good! Khaki is not my colour and the lifestyle just seems a little to hardcore for me! So i backed out! I then went on to work in a BT call centre, that place was utterly ridiculous! Monkeys could have ran the place better! Sometimes you would arrive there to find out there was not enough room for you so you had to sit out in the hall and get paid to stare in to space! Which although is slightly better than listening to complaints about why peoples Broadband isnt working! However after a while staring into space does start to fry your mind! After one of the managers asked whether i was being sexually harassed by the male workers wolfwhistling, i decided it was better for me to leave and try something else! Since then i have been stuck in a rut! Im not quite sure what to do? Do my highers in college or school? School would be more convinient but college would be more laid back?? Eventually, i want to be a psychologist, that specialises in children and teenagers! This appeals to me as i love to talk and help people! I can only imagine the satisfaction you would get from helping someone overcome problems that they feel have become unbearable! I hope one day i do accomplish my goals! As i cant think of anything that would make me happier than being able to make a difference to peoples life and helping them believe in theirselves

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